Monday, September 22, 2008

Farewell to Summer

Today is the Autumn Equinox, usually one of my favorite times of the year. I’ve been wondering why I am so reluctant to let go of Summer this time around. I think it might be because I feel really ready for a change and yet, I’m afraid that my expectations will be dashed. This has been a difficult summer without enough good times to relax and enjoy the beautiful weather we’ve had. My interactions with my horses have been focused on healing them of physical ailments. I’m just feeling jumpy and unsettled.

Several years ago, a friend of mine studied with Sandra Ingerman, a shaman who lives in New Mexico. She introduced me to Sandra’s books and to her website, on which there is a monthly newsletter. Sandra is a wise woman with a big heart and great hope for the direction that this world is heading. So, on the Equinox, I turned to her to see what she had to say:

“Let’s use the support of the seasonal change of letting go of what is no longer needed and release those blocking energies back to the earth and universe to be composted so that new beautiful life might be born from what you let go of. “

Tomorrow, I’m going to give myself the gift of an hour of sitting in the pasture with my horses. I’ve been saying I want to do this almost every day and I never have the time. I think I’ll be twitching, wanting to groom them or pick up after them. I won’t give in to my nervous energy. I will let it all go back into the earth and worry about the compost pile later.


AnnL said...

That's a nice thought. Yes, you should take that hour to just sit. We all get far too busy "doing" things. We need time to rejuvinate and reflect. A lesson from our horses is that it's OK to just "be" instead of always "doing".

Enjoy your time with your girls tomorrow.


deejbrown said...

What a great gift to yourself. Reminds me of your description of when you first had Silk, and just hung out with her to gain her trust. It would be nice to know we could do the same thing to trust ourselves.

Karen said...

I've been following your blog for some time now. You have really inspired me, as I get back to riding after a long break.
Let us know about your hour of just "being" with your horses, and what their reaction was.

Carolynn said...

Very good advice. I must get back into a habit of meditation. It's so beneficial. Enjoy your quiet time with your girls.

Ewa said...

ooh Victoria, I felt similar in a way. Yesterday I went for one hour walk in the rainy weather, searching for answers. Some of them I found, but some are still in the air. Asked. Awaiting answer.

billie said...

Enjoy your hour!

Summer for us has been good, but it feels like it has been a long one. We never had the intense heat of last year, nor the drought, and for that I am very grateful. I'm very ready for the season to shift, though.

I've been sitting with the horses every evening most of the summer. It definitely feels like a gift at the end of the day, no matter how many hours I've already spent at the barn. That last quiet one without the activity is very restorative.

LJB said...

I am wondering how your 'being' time is going/went/will be... Thinking of you.

Grey Horse Matters said...

I think if you drag a chair into the paddock and read a book or just quietly watch the girls it would be a wonderful experience in peace and tranquility. I'm sure at the end of an hour you won't want to leave and relinquish the feeling of harmony you will achieve with your girls.